Thank you so much for sharing in such great detail about this step. This step is the keystone on which all else depends. You can't have an arch through which to pass to freedom without the keystone. If I don't practice this step on a daily basis for the rest of my life I will have little hope of maintaining sobriety, I know this for a fact.
Without this step, I'll just end up with a brand new set of old ideas and think I have it all "figured out".
So, for me, since I don't know God's plan (maybe he wanted me to have $200,000 instead of $2000) and I will always have free will, I have to keep it real simple. Just as you say, do the work, and then step back and walk through the day. Suit up and show up and do what is in front of me to do. And as you discussed in another post, act myself into right thinking instead of thinking myself into right acting.
The 12X12 says we haven't even prayed rightly. We had always said "Grant me my wishes" instead of "Thy will be done". We have not asked what God's will was for us; instead we had been telling him what it ought to be. As a greedy child makes an impossible list for Santa Claus we had asked for perfect security, prestige, romance, money whatever.
I love that the BB makes it so simple on pg. 85-88:
We CONSTANTLY remind ourselves we are no longer running the show, humbly saying to ourselves many times each day "Thy will be done".
When we pray we ask especially for freedom from self-will, and are careful to make no request for ourselves only. We may ask for ourselves if others will be helped.
Every day is a day when we must carry the vision of God's will into all of our activities. "How can I best serve Thee - Thy will (not mine) be done". These are the thoughts which must go with us CONSTANTLY. We can excercise our will power along this line all we wish. It is the proper use of the will.
Bill W. keeps using the word constantly, hmmmmm.
Easy Does It????