Jim, I really appreciate what you shared.
This entire website, Step12.com, is dedicated to talking about the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, Carrying the message of Step 12, and talking about God.
So... I hope you'll never feel inhibited here, in sharing your experience with the 12 Steps, and the God of your own understanding.
Who knows... maybe the more people who find this site, and find it loaded up with sharing on the 12 Steps... some of them may get curious what the heck we're so excited about! And, perhaps a few might want to experiment with reading the Big Book and trying the program in the book!
All of those wonderful feelings that I was looking for in the bottle and with drugs... I found through taking the Steps out of the book. Following those simple daily instructions gives me a high that is indescribable!
I should say "yet".... but, I have never been arrested for driving while having a Spiritual Experience. I've never been thrown out of any establishment for having a Spiritual Experience. I've never been to the hospital.... (as a patient)...yet... for having a Spiritual Experience.
I kind of think it might be like this... If I told a normie, that they could dance better, talk better, and do everything better, with a few drinks... they would think I was nuts.
It's the same way, when I tell an alcoholic that they can dance better, talk better, and do everything else better after only taking 12 simple Steps... they think I'm nuts.
What really seems to be funny to me... is, typically... most alkies that I know, don't want to feel like they are missing or have missed out on anything. And, the one's that haven't taken the 12 Steps out of the book... are missing the experience of a lifetime!
Of course, in looking back on my own experience, before I took the 12 Steps out of the book, I didn't believe anything good would happen, before I took them. And, I was afraid of stirring up my old conflicts with God. I felt it was easier just to avoid thinking about God.
There is no doubt in my mind, that if I could have found an easier way to spring the trap that had a hold on me... I would have taken a different route. I thank God for the Gift of Desperation and Pain that I had bestowed upon myself! Had I not been hurting so bad.... I probably couldn't have gone through the 12 Steps either.