I'm still fairly new at the 12 steps compared to some people on here, so my "revelations" are a bit elementary. Yesterday it hit me how much Steps 1,3, & 11 are related to each other. Lately I've been slacking on my daily time in prayer and meditation and have I started to loose some of that concious contact with God. I could tell I was losing that contact because I started saying things & using language I wouldn't normally use.
So I took a step back and looked at myself and realized that I was skipping Step 11 pretty regularly. That got me thinking. If I am not seeking out my Higher Power everyday that means I am looking to myself. If I am looking to myself to make life work then I am not living like I am powerless. Also, if I am not seeking out my Higher Power everyday then I am beginning the process of taking my life and my will back. That will eventually lead back to taking a drink and that could lead to disaster.
Every morning I pray this simple prayer. "God let me know what it is that you want me to do today and provide me with the power to carry that will out. Help me be aware of you today so that I can see the areas of my life in which you are working and I can be aware of the areas of my life that need to be changed". I have found when I open my day with that simple prayer I am more likely to realize both the correction and the teaching/correction that God is offering me throughout the day.
I said that prayer this morning, for the first time in about a week or so, and I can already tell this difference in my attitude and actions.
