I just want to ask the group if you think it is possible to take your will back once you intially hand "your will and your life over to the care of God as we understood Him" or do you think there are certain parts we just don't hand over in our first attempts at this Step.
Dallas wrote:I just want to ask the group if you think it is possible to take your will back once you intially hand "your will and your life over to the care of God as we understood Him" or do you think there are certain parts we just don't hand over in our first attempts at this Step.
Regardless of how earnest, serious, determined and committed that I was in making my 3rd Step Decision -- it's still only a DECISION. I haven't actually done anything other than to "say" I was going to turn my will and life over to the care of God.
IF I was sincere, in my decision, and I'm using the instructions in the Big Book for taking the Steps.. my decision, though vital, will have little effect UNLESS I immediately follow it with the actions of taking Steps 4 through 9.
I think we have to back up and ask "What's my objective? What am I attempting to do?" For me, I found this answer in Step 12. I need to have a Spiritual Awakening. A specific TYPE of Spiritual Awakening -- that comes about as THE result of taking these previous Eleven Steps.
I believe we actually have the Spiritual Awakening when we get to Step 10. Our book says that "we have entered the world of the Spirit" when we get into Step 10. However, in this same Step... it tells us that we've actually only just begun... and that there is still much more action to do!
I also made a DECISION to SURRENDER in Step 3. I put up the White Flag, but I haven't done anything yet.... other than put up the White Flag. The Surrender takes place, according to the instructions in the Big Book -- by taking Steps Four through Nine. By Step 10, our Obsession is removed. Our insanity has been removed. We have been RESTORED to acting sanely and normal. We've experienced a transformation.
Step 10... taking it daily, has the daily effect of Steps 1 through 9, and we repeat the processes that we learned in Steps 4 through 9... all throughout our day. This is the "One Day At A Time" Program (Steps 10 through 12).
So, we're not prepared to live the One Day At A Time Program unless we have TAKEN Steps 4 through 9. That lays the foundation and gives us the training and knowledge of what we MUST do each day.
The reason why we must continue to "practice these principles" in all our affairs (the 12 Steps = the Principles) is: we must constantly surrender, every day, every moment, for the rest of our lives... in ALL parts of our life -- new and old. Thus, we are continually surrendering.
sparklek wrote:Thank you! As my sponsor says, "you are not powerful enough to take your will back from God." This idea comforts me. I have been willing to follow through after Step 3 and my life has changed. I think my expectation of myself if too high and when things go "wrong" I think I did something wrong. In fact, maybe I was doing exactly what I was suppose to do. Thanks all!
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