Yes. You're not alone.
I still struggle with having to keep my lid on.
I want to let it rip -- and too often, I let it rip.
Then, I want to just go and hide and let things cool off
but I guess I've formed a pattern now, of knowing I had better
make amends as soon as I can and try harder on
not letting it rip.
Steps 10 & 11: Growing in Understanding & Effectiveness.
What that means for me is: Developing structure, discipline, and trying like heck to grow in maturity.
Lack of maturity -- and not being able to act maturely for long periods of time -- has always been my weakness as far back as I can remember.
I could probably sum up all my defects of character, not as Ego, but as "Childish-ness."
The big baby. LOL.
However, it's refreshing to me -- to see that I have made some progress.
Maybe it's tiny and incremental -- but, at least, it's still progress.
My sponsor tells me "That's all we can do. Strive to make a little more progress today than we did yesterday.
And, when we fail at it -- pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off -- and get back on the road again."