Step 2: Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
When I first came into AA I had difficulty with Step 2. I thought I just wouldn't be able to make it. That was because I didn't understand what was being asked of me, to take Step 2.
When the following paragraphs were pointed out to me, in the Big Book, on page 44... the door seemed to swing wide open for me.
Page 44, Big Book: "We needed to ask ourselves but one short question. Do I now believe, or am I even willing to believe, that there is a Power greater than myself? As soon as a man can say that he does believe, or is willing to believe, we emphatically assure him that he is on his way. It has been repeadedly proven among us that upon this simple cornerstone a wonderfully effective spiritual structure can be built.
That was great news for us, for we had assumed we could not make use of spiritual principles unless we accepted many things on faith which seemed difficult to believe."
1. Do I now believe, or am I even willing to believe, that there is a Power greater than myself?
I had been one of those who "assumed I could not make use of spiritual principles unless I accepted many things on faith which seemed difficult to believe."
I had thought that since I didn't know what to believe in... I wouldn't be able to take Step 2.
So, that short question, of "am I even willing to believe, that there is a Power greater than myself?" ... was enough to get me started.
I didn't know much about a Power greater than myself. I didn't need to know much about it. Was I willing to believe that there was a Power greater than myself? Of course I was.
I knew that alcohol was a Power greater than myself. It could do for me, what I couldn't do on my own.
I knew that my alcoholism was a Power greater than myself. It was doing to me, what I could not prevent it from doing... on my own.
I knew that life was a Power greater than myself. As much as I love to live life... I can't live without life inside me!
I realized that I already believed in at least three Powers greater than myself. I didn't believe that AA would work for me... but I was sure willing to "hope" that it would!
When I looked around me, and saw other alcoholics recovering... staying sober, getting better, living happy, joyous and free... I knew that they must have found something... that was a Power greater than theirselves.
Could I admit that "they" had found a Power greater than theirselves?
If they had found a Power greater than theirselves... that would mean that there is a Power....
Who was I to deny that such a Power existed? I couldn't even stay sober! They were staying sober. I wasn't very happy either. And, they seemed to be happy, sober, and really living and enjoying life.
Obviously, the AA's that stood around me knew something that I didn't know.
How was it, that they were able to do something, and I wasn't able to do it? Simple. They really had tapped into a Power greater than theirselves.
The question was simply "am I willing to believe?"
I guess, as I look back on it now... I was believing long before I knew that I was believing! And, I was willing to believe before I knew that I was willing to believe.
Then, I discovered, that if I was simply "willing to believe" I had already taken Step 2! With that done... I could now move on to Step 3!