Well now I think Dallas is picking on me .
I'd be looking pretty silly here saying I react sanely and normally, as I'm cussing out the dog. But when it comes to alcohol, I think I do act sanely and normally.
It looks like that promise goes hand in hand with step 2. The problem was with the sanity thing, I didn't have a defense against the drink calling out my name before I found the program. When the alcohol phone rang, I'd always answer. But now staying sober, I remember having one of them experiences where I acted normally and sanely, and you know me, if it says "without thinking", by golly you got me all ears.
I was needing something to drink real bad...dry as a bone...and I had a craving for Gatorade (this was last week). I go to this beverage store/liquor store cause it's the only thing in the neighborhood I'm in. And lordy at the bottles of anything and everything all packed tight, colorful, lit up, spinning and whirling, and almost jumping off the shelf. I saw things and brands I never even heard of! And theres cardboard girls with cardboard bottles bouncing and springing all over the place. Then theres that little airplane that's over your head with a real propeller and a sign behind it that says drink somebody's beer. But I found my Gatorade (you know the original green stuff), and I was done with it. I didn't have any reaction whatsover. I admit I was a little amazed at how many different kinds of things were there, and the setup was real distracting. It seems like when I was drinking, you didn't have that many choices of things to drink. But that's like everything else like toothpaste...I thought I'd have to call my sponsor to get the right kind of toothpaste!
It was like that one promise that says (maybe its more than one):
"We feel as though we had been placed in a position of neutrality - safe and protected. We have not even sworn off. Instead, the problem has been removed. It does not exist for us."
And thats how it felt that night. And I had to go to liquor stores now and then to get things like energy drink or beef jerkys. Then I feel like it says, neutral and protected. But I do think its based on my spriritual condition.
I have to pray in the morning every morning for a time that my God specifies, then He wants me to meditate at night for a specified time, and I do some of what Dallas said with some of step 10 and some of step 11. See I do the step 11 first to clear out my mind of everything, then I go back and do the days review of step 10. Then I go back and get still and quiet again to finish meditating. And meditating for is a habit that has changed my life absolutely for the better.
Sometimes I don't get an inspiration at night, but there's times when I wake up and BAM, I get a fistful of inspiration that just came out of nowhere first thing in the morning. Those times are awesome and there's no other way to describe it. But meditating, and keeping spiritually fit, and doing this 10th step every day is one of the biggest blessings I know about. I hope all of you can cultivate this as a habit because you sure won't regret it.