Be strong Judy! Lean on your Higher Power and ask 'thy will be done'. Now you can get some clarity and peace for yourself without having to worry about him.
I just got a call from the hospital where Mom was admitted during the night. She has end stage cirrhosis of the liver for those of you that I haven't shared that with. So this time it doesn't appear to be anything too serious. Extreme upper abdominal pain. Might be gall bladder. No GI bleed this time. Thank God!
I am doing good. I will go over there but I'm taking care of what I need to take care of first. My Al-Anon habit is to drop everything (my kids, husband, whatever) and rush to her side. I am trying to get better balance and keep MY sobriety at the top of my priority list and realize that I can not save her. She has to want to quit drinking.I actually had planned to go over there today and tomorrow anyway to do some work for her. So I can still do the work and just visit her intermittently at the hospital. Hopefully I can hit a meeting over there. It's about an hour away from my home.
Today I am 8 months sober.
Life is good.