My name is Anne, I'm an alcoholic,
Thanks for droppin' by, & I hope ya decide to stick around. Yip, know exacts what yir sayin'. It was suggested when I wasn't long into the program that there's other groups out there...if ya find this one ain't workin' for ya...if ya can, try another. This site, I can tell ya...is a great group, but nothin' replaces live meetin's. I've learned-by experience...that I can't conform any group to how I think it should be. We're all sick, we're all alcoholics of different types, & we're all gathered with one common goal.
I knew a fella who was in the Navy/time served-discharged, finds work in a land-locked town, moves&settles in. This guy had been to meetin's all over the world & came in skeptical 'bout his new home-group, kickin'&fussin&mutterin' under his breath: "what kind-a group is this?" Then, the thought occured to him: what am I puttin' into it/what do I have to offer? His sponsor told 'im...ya get outta meetin's what ya put in...ya share from the heart you're experience, strength & hope--get from the pillow back to the pillow sober&sharin' what's workin' for ya...you'll get outta it what 'cha put in cuz in order to keep it ya gotta give it away...cuz you'll always help someone stay sober, you'll touch someone when ya talk from the heart--the person ya help the most though, is you. I've taken all these attitudes&ideas into meetin's...& sometimes--it does boil down to: I gotta find a different group. I do have stories that're more for private message category alright--bottom line though is...I kept goin' 'til I found a meetin'/group that works for me...found an oldtimers group that don't mind me attendin', in fact...they like seein' someone younger come in cuz they know...I'm serious about this...& I want what they got. Oldtimers, I've seen it...they sort-a get that brushed aside feelin', & I witnessed it happen on a few occasions, &--I don't know 'bout others, but there's somethin' in that dude that can help me...he/she's stayed sober for 20-30-40 years..thing-a that is, they'll say that they's as close to pickin' up today sometimes, so they call their sponsor, say how they got thru the day&still sober...they gotta work it, work at it & keep doin' today what they were told to do 20-30-40 years ago...get to a meetin'...need that meetin'. I've been frazzled over groups&meetin's...today, I just know I need 'em...&...even a "bad" meetin' is betta than no meetin' at all.
I keep in mind that there's people out there all over the planet that are tryin' to stay sober, are members of AA, but don't have the option of goin' to a meetin' cuz there ain't any. I know-a this one lady who was workin' down in South America...not even another member about, never mind a meetin'. She touched base with GSO, they were able to connect her with 2 members who were a 3 hour row-boat ride away. These 2 members would row the 3 hours to either pick her up, take her the 3 hours back to where they were, or just stay...but they found a way to have their meetin'. Gotta be willin' to go to any lengths.
Keep comin' back--ya got somethin' I want&need.