Welcome to the forum.
I am an alcoholic and an addict, but can't seem to find a good spot for me (AA, CMA, NA).
LOL, I said the exact same thing when I came in. That was before I understood that I am an alcoholic. Even though I was in the halls, I had a sneaking suspicion that I just did alot of drugs and alcohol, but my life being unmanageable was the real problem; so when I figured out how to straighten out my life, I'd be able to drink and drug normally. I got a sponsor and told her that I just didn't feel comfortable at any of the meetings I went to--like I didn't really belong. She thought that was really funny
But she explained to me that the only place my disease was going to let me feel comfortable was where I could get drugs and alcohol. That made some sense to me so I kept coming back.
And I hope you keep coming back--6 months is a big accomplishment