"We might not have it all together...
but together... we have it all!"
I still suffer from "when I ain't feeling quite right... I don't want to be seen or heard!" How embarrassing to not look and sound good!
My experience tells me that.... "when I'm not feeling quite right... that's the time I should be seen and heard the most"... but, my Ego has a real tough time believing that!
I've found that for me, the only way to do something different... in those regards... is to "let go absolutely of some of my old ideas" about me having to look and sound good...
and reach out... or, to wait until I get so uncomfortable
that I just can't handle it on my own!
When I listen or read... that someone else shares my same similar difficulties... it reminds me that I'm not so unique or alone.
On a different note......... I sure understand that feeling of "wanting to find a new home group." I've been looking for so long that I've sort of given up and decided to make myself at home wherever I'm at!
Thank God for speaker tapes, CD's and mp3 files!!! At least I can keep my head filled with the A.A. that I need to hear while my body is still searching out different meetings that I would prefer to be in! And, the more "at home" that I choose to make myself feel... the more comfortable it is for me while I search. (Of course... Thank God for all of you on this forum, too!!! You help me keep my head filled with the A.A. that I need... in between meetings!)
My head says "just sell your house and move back to L.A. where your real home group is!" ... It's probably a fear that says "Yep. That's great! But, you have two dogs to support and take with you! How will it be for them? Will they enjoy living in the city as much as you do?"
Too bad the dogs can't talk clear enough so that I can always understand what they're trying to tell me! (Or... is it "too bad I can't hear clear enough to always understand what the dogs are trying to tell me"? )