1. This is not really an AA-related topic, it's just something that might have been unusual -- that an A.A. member did. (My experience).
2. It has nothing to do with A.A. recovery. It's more like... "maybe way out there"?
3. It has been several years since I've discussed anything like this -- with another A.A. member -- and I have been curious -- for several years -- if any other A.A. member may be out there who has tried some of the "Altered States Experiments -- while sober."
4. I posted it here -- because I didn't know where else to put it.
5. By all means Moderators -- if this is inappropriate here -- please let me know, and I'll either remove it your you can. (As if you didn't know that!)
6. If anyone else feels that it is inappropriate for this to be posted here -- please let me know.
Gees, how time flies!!!
I remember back in 1989, I was three years sober -- and as I was studying my Big Book -- I came across a sentence on page 143 wrote:
"To get over drinking will require a transformation of thought and attitude."
Two of my sons were real small then and on the weekends I was able to pick them up and have them with me for the weekends. I guess we did the normal routine of a "Weekend Dad with his sons" -- where we would wake up early in the morning, watch a couple of cartoons on TV, go out to get breakfast, and then head to the local Toys R' Us store -- to find what would make us happy for the day!
I became fascinated with one of the cartoon shows, that was called "The Transformers! More than meets the eye!" (Yes. We also bought a lot of Transformers toys and Sea Monkeys!) And, at the end of the weekend, I would take my boys back home to their mother -- including a few bags of new toys! It felt so awesome sober -- and to spend time with my kids.
This was during one of those "Phases of Development" in my recovery -- where I was intensely working towards the practice of Step Eleven in my life.
I had been trying all sorts of methods and techniques -- to discipline myself and practice meditation. I had been attending several None-A.A. related workshops, retreats and seminars -- and, most every workshop, seminar and retreat that I attended -- included periods of various types of meditations.
One of the types of meditations that interested me was -- guided and unguided visualization techniques -- to use in conjunction with meditation. As some soothing and tranquilizing music was being played -- we would either be guided through the meditation -- or -- it was "freeform" -- where we would learn and practice different techniques -- and then turned loose to experiment with guiding ourselves through the visualizations.
One of my favorites -- was to visualize myself as being one of the Transformers from the cartoons that I had been watching with my kids. I would do all kinds of space travel -- flying, circling planets, and just having fun flying through space with my body as my vehicle -- and in mid air -- transform my body into different vehicles -- depending on the acrobatics that I was performing with my mind.
Somehow -- my consciousness -- made a connection with page 143's, "transformation of thought and attitude" -- and the Transformer toys -- the cartoons -- and my own guided imagery. And, it produced one of those "foo foo moments" -- that felt like I was experiencing some sort of spiritual alertness -- or that I had raised my consciousness to a level of Higher Awareness. It was fun! It felt like drugs in the natural state of being totally physically abstinent any mind-altering substance.
During one of those moments -- where I was experiencing a state of Higher Awareness, I began to contemplate the therapeutic change process brought about by the application of the 12 Steps. My thoughts suddenly came up with a phrase, that I later used to describe my ideas and concepts -- and I called it "Transformational Therapy!"
I'm an experimenter and visionary at heart -- so I tried mixing the application of the applied principles of taking the 12 Steps -- while in a state of Higher Consciousness, -- and then -- arranged some music, and guided imagery, to be used during the Step Eleven phase of my experiments.
WOW!!!! Talk about an awesome experience!!!!! The only thing I could imagine relating it to -- to describe it -- was, when I had been experimenting with LSD, years before my sobriety.
I began making a list of particular problems in my life -- or challenges, and goals and quests -- that I had established for myself -- and then applied my special concoction of my experimental "Transformational Therapy Techniques."
My results were: that I was able to accomplish rapid personal change and development within myself, and was able to rapidly achieve many of my goals, objectives and quests -- that would have normally taken me several months, or possibly several years of self-discipline and effort.
So -- now I've described what I was doing, and I've always been curious -- if anyone else out there in A.A., has experimented in the ways that I have experimented -- and if you have, I'm curious to hear of your results -- and some of the processes that you have tried.
Thanks for your replies.