AND SOME SAY " THERE IS NO GOD "
I found out that my stepfather through a bottle of whiskey at me mother and just missed her.
That's all, ENOUGH! I said to myself he's going. I'm going to shoot him to pieces and make him suffer and bleed.
It was surly going to happen and GOD is my witness that night.
I took my 9mm Beretta and went to the bar Mom and he owned.
I walked into the bathroom to get nice and calm. It was a very small bathroom about 7 to 8 ft. long and about 4ft. wide. As you entered the bathroom to your right was a small sink with a mirror over it.
As you stood facing the mirror and turned your head to the left was
the commode and that was it, nothing fancy just simple. (sink,mirror and toilet).
The thoughts of what I was going to do to him ran through my mind.
I had such calming RAGE. I was in complete control of my emotions. Knowing full well what I was going to do. (my body was thrill of the doing of this act, I was enlighten sore of. Never felt like that before. Joy that I was going to destroy him) Strange.
I first would go in front of him and shoot him in both his arms ( for hitting my Mother and me)
Next, shoot both his kneecaps (so he would now kneel before me)
And when he pleaded to me ( I would finally put one in his head )
I was so determined. It was going to be done.
Everytime I see the Godfater film and see Michael in the bathroom in the restaurant. He looking on top the the toilet for the planted gun.
I think of what I was so eager to do that night.
Now here's were GOD comes in to the picture. Once more let me say as SURE as I'm writting this posting, the old man was going. I was going to shoot him to pieces.
But gang listen to what a GREAT SENSE OF HUMOR MY LORD AND SAVIOR HAS GOT.
I took my automatic 9mm out of my waistband and cock it.
As I put the gun back into my waistband; IT WHEN OFF ! BANG!
It was as if an EXPLOSION happened inside that tiny bathroom.
The bullet just missed my manhood (Do you believe that I would have shot my best friend . . . lol its the GOD'S honest truth)
The bullit went right through my pants leg missing the toilet and enter into the woodgain panelling. Someone knocked on the door and said, " Ray are you allright."
I replied YEAH MY F--KING GUN JUST WHEN OFF !
Immediatly, a voice in my head was said, you're going to prison for murder. For what! Him. No walk out, go home.
My stepfather never said anything about that night and that bullet was never taken out of the woodgain panelling.
GOD WAS WITH ME THAT NIGHT.
I'm so grateful that " HE " INTERVEINED AND SAVED ME.
That's only one of the situation in my life that JESUS SAVED ME.
NOTE: I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY YRS. I HAD IN A.A. AT THE TIME. I WAS ABSOULETY SOBER AT THE TIME. (talk about a DRY DRUNK)
Today i'm in my 32yr. of continous sobriety; ONLY BY THE GRACE OF GOD AND THE ROOMS OF A.A.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL