as of today I have had 1826 daily reprieves !! I was told by my first sponsor that at five years you start getting your marbles back
and at ten years you might start learning how to use them again
I`ve been sitting here reflecting whats different in my life and if my marbles are coming back ! since I came to the program
well lets see I have a relationship with GOD I dont wake up drunk or hungover anymore I trust and depend on GOD to provide the things I need and try to know the difference between want and need
I am aware today of my defects and not ashamed of them I know when they come up that I can ask for the strenght to change I know that I`m powerless over certain things and I`m not ashamed of that or to ask for help I TRY to think before I react or speak
I know what an inflated ego is and that I have the tools to deflate it when it tries to blow up again wich happens on ocassion
I have compassion and concern for others I know that GOD is at work in my life all the time!!
I know that I`m not perfect
I am a better Mother sister daughter friend employee I`m not running the show and we are all alot safer for that
am I happy all the time NO do I get what I want all the time NO is my life perfect NO but thats ok because today I have a loving caring GOD, the tools of the program & I have 12 steps to get me through any thing that comes my way today
I dont have to have a drink the obssesion has been removed
so whats changed in my life ME and my way of thinking
that may not sound like much to some people but to me Its nothing short of a Miracle !!!!!
as for the marbles I think I am getting them back when I start THINKING!
I hear somthing rolling around in there (my head)