Welcome to the site, Kelly! And, thank you, for sharing. Yep. I understand. I relate... to the drinking. Using. Feelings. Thinking. Some of the behaviors. And... most importantly... to the survival! I've heard that some scientists are doing a research -- to figure out what it is about people like us -- that can go through hell 10 levels deep -- and still be able to survive it -- when one level of hell would have killed normal people.
I'm glad someone that may have a few brain cells is studying it. I've sat around thinking about it -- sober -- for the last 23 years... "What the heck is it about us... that we were able to survive the things that would have killed a city of people???"
I believe that there is something different about us. Not just different in the sense of alcoholism or addiction, or the feelings... there is something else about us... that is obviously different. We're able to survive the hell -- and then get out of it and help others get out of it, too!
Maybe, that's the secret. Helping others. We made a decision to get out of hell -- to stay out of hell -- and to help others get out and stay out of hell. And, we followed through, with actions. So, maybe, that's one of the differences in us and other drunks that don't make it. The one's that die drinking and using. We took some different actions.
Thanks again for sharing. I hope you keep coming back. I felt a bond with you after reading your story.