I hope you're not like me. I had all those excuses too. The way it worked for me was: I had to lose all that was precious and dear to me, family, kids, jobs, businesses, cars, houses and all that neat stuff that gives all people stress -- regardless if they are alcoholic or not -- before I could get enough "stress free" inside me to get sober.
Nope. Didn't get the family or wife or kids back either -- not even back after almost 24 yrs sober.
With alcoholics that don't get help to stop their drinking -- reasons are nothing more than excuses -- for not doing what they "don't want to do" -- which is: to give up alcohol.
I know -- I am one.
And, I've been to the funerals of many of them, friends, family and strangers.
The bottomline is: it's all a timeline. You either surrender and get help while you've got time, or you wait until you lose it all and it kills you. The choice is yours.
It's not easy either. You might as well face the fact that nearly every one of us faced: When we first stopped drinking the stress was magnified x100. And, that is what each one of us faced as newcomers.
You can either man up to it, bite the bullet and do what has to be done to get help -- or not. The choice is yours. If your not willing to step up to the plate and do the hard work -- don't complain about it and don't let it stress you. It won't be long and it will all be gone.
That may sound bitter and tough. Not intentionally bitter and tough -- it's just the truth. Most alcoholics have an allergy to truth -- they don't want people being out front and frankly honest with them. They want their wounds kissed and to be pampered into sobriety. Reality is: it doesn't work that way.
Best wishes. It's your choice and your decision.
btw: When I mention "sober" I don't mean "just not drinking". I'm referring to "sobriety" which includes "not drinking".
To achieve "sobriety" is a lot more difficult work and a lot more "changes that we don't want to make" and a lot more about "following directions" that are required -- as opposed to "just physically sober."
When I read what your conditions are -- it sounds to me that you're describing "physically sober". And, physically sober -- without "sobriety" for an alcoholic is very depressing, very lonely, and leaves us restless, irritable and discontented and stressed -- when we don't drink. That -- is the evidence -- that we are "real alcoholics."