Ain't that sumthin!?
I see a lot of that "not ready for step 1". Of course that's nobody's call but the that one person. Like me, nobody could decide I am an alcoholic but me. Everyone KNEW IT. But I couldn't do step one till I convinced myself.
Well, I certainly didn't have that roblem. I knew it for years while I kept drinking. I admitted and eccepted it long ago.
But I largely hang out at a rehab facility and I see all kinds of beginners like these:
*In a chair by court order.
*In a chair by family intervention
*Took a chair to find out if the suspicion was true.
*Took a chair knowing, but not committing
*Took a chair committing with reservation
*Grabbed a chair committed
*Owned a chair desperately committed
Just because someone is in a chair doesn't mean they are thoroughly convinced. Shoot ... many claim drug abuse but not alcohol and vice versa. Ever seen a professing alcoholic smoke dope? Just not the same, is it?
Some, once admitting alsoholism, find out how "easy" it was to stop drinking once they came in.
Sometimes a couple of weeks is all it takes to forget what drove them in. SO easy, suddenly they "think" they might not be THAT ALCOHOLIC. Maybe it's just a controllable drinking problem after all. Feel better? Maybe I can control it now.
So, yes, got NO clue why, it sometimes takes folks a long time to actually get through step 1 fo a slew of reasons.
Not that I needed it personally, I was COMPLETELY convinced and was IN step 1 for drinking years. But I DID step 1 for a month over and over with all kinds of soul searching and re-iteration, not to convince myself, but to POUND OUT the creepy idea that I knew would pop into my head someday the farther I got from hell that maybe I can do this thing without all this effort.
From the chair I own, no hurry. Gotta get it. If it takes going out again for more evidence ... We'll be here for you when you're convinced.
I'm livin' proof that self-knowledge WILL NOT keep me sober.
It's still true that "a little AA knowledge will ruin a perfectly good drunk".
"Nuthin like a little experience to ruin a good theory."