jujulynn wrote:I am sniveling every now and then and trying to self-manage my situation.
You're not alone. I think we can all identify with that.
I understand living in remote places. There are only 100,000 people in the area where I live. It sucks.
I once lived in a town with only 300 people. And, that was alright -- because I was still drinking and my head gave me a lot of company.
That little town of 300, was the second place and second time that I heard of AA. I was drunk in a laundramat -- at 3 am in the morning watching the dryers go around. When I got up to put another quarter in the dryer -- I went back to my seat and discovered that someone snuck in and put on the seat of my chair, one of those little yellow cards with the "20 Questions to help you decide if your alcoholic"
I read it and considered it was some religious nut and fanatic that did it -- trying to spread propaganda that no one should drink alcohol.
Later that morning -- I discovered that this happened on the day of Bill Wilson, Founder of AA's death. I read about him that day in the newspaper and got upset that they would put his name and picture on the front page of the newspaper -- when his desire was to be Anonymous.
Little did I know -- that some caring lonely AA member, in a little logging town of 300, was attempting to pass on a 12th Step message of hope and awareness to me.
I know a lady, that used to live in the small town that I live in now, that moved up to Colorado, to a little town with about 300 people in it (when tourist season isn't going on). There was one unannounced meeting in town with one member that went to it. So, she took it on herself to get active -- trying to help other alcoholics like me... and started a busy little pocket of AA enthusiasm in the town.
She too, only had a pc and a cell-phone connection to other sober members of AA, and she came to this site as often as she could for encouragement and Fellowship. It worked for her.
I, too, come here for Fellowship and companionship. And, I get inspired and encouraged when you (jujulynn) and others... come here, too.
You end up helping me, and inspiring me and encouraging me. And, if the world works, the way I think it does... and I do believe that it does... what you're passing on to me, will return to you, a hundred-fold.
The returns may not come from me, and they may not come from here. Who knows, where they will come from? But, they will come.
I hope you stick around with us. It may be of help to you, and I'm sure, that you're sticking around here -- will be a great help to us, and others like us!
Best wishes. And, I hope you keep coming back.