Good Evening Juliem,
I recently aquired a sponsee that sounds pretty much the same as you. He was sober for almost 15 years, had a serious accident to which the Drs put him on some heavy meds, and went back out 2 years ago. He just last Saturday celebrated his 6th month.
Although, at least in his case, I really feel that he was missing something else in his program originally. I do agree, that as alcoholics we run a higher than normal risk of relapse when medication is subscribed to us. Therefore, when my prodege ask me to be hia sponsor, I agreed to with the condition that he 1st writes an essay on what really caused his relapse.
What he came up with is that he let the program, his God, and his sponsor all go. He wrote that although he didn't realize it, he all of the sudden started cutting back on his meetings, he started not returning phone calls of the others he was working with, he told me he fired his sponsor because he kept asking him if he was praying to his higher power to rid him of his newly aquired self centeredness. All these things my prodege didn't want to hear, as the medication kept him drifting backwards. So he fell farther from his program, and we all know what the results of that is.
Welcome back Julie, I truely hope you can stay this time! As you learned before, there are alot of us out here that, given the same circumstanses,
would be in your shoes also. So with that being said, I'd suggest you get a new sponsor, if you haven't already, and start working on step 1 as soon as you can. Keep coming back to this site, and go to meetings. The best thing for you to avoid anymore self infliction to yourself is to not drink. I am behind you 100%, and would stay sober for you, if I could, but you know as well as I do that would be impossible. You're the only one who can do that.
I wish you the best. Hope to see you here again.