Bobby & Angeleyes,
Getting here late. Great to see y'all here and paying attention. Nice move.
I was chagrinned to find out I was the last person to think I'm an alcoholic. When I told people I'm an alcoholic, my boss, my friends, the girl at the convenience store all said, "Ya THINK?"
I felt like they'd all been hiding it from me.
Actually, the girl at the convenience store said, "No wine today?" "No, thanks. I quit drinkin'." "OOooohhhh ... THAT's why we haven't had to order that stuff in a month."
(I had just gotten out of a month in rehab.)
I said, "Well YOU talked me into it stopping!" "What did I have to do with it?" "One time you said, 'You sure buy a lot of that'." She said, "Hmmm ... then you sure buy a lot of cigarettes, too." "Ok ... you can stop saving my life now."
I went to another meeting yesterday,,, Good stuff... people sharing stories.. some like mine others not...BUT..it was the after the meeting in the parking lot that got to me.. some of these people really care... Imagine a stranger giving you thier number abd saying.."call me any time you need to talk"....
Look at you ! ... starting to sound like an AAer already, sharing hope with another newcomer. You're getting it brother. You've noticed who cares and where you can get helped. Keep that up and you'll be caring about other people, too. WE stay sober together.
Angeleyes ... Don't quit quitting. You're doing yourself a huge favor coming here and sharing your experience. We all need to hear your progress and are more interested in your success than you can imagine. Thank you.
Now go to a flesh-and-blood meeting! We're sitting in those chairs. Meet us.
I had to go back for some more convincing, too ... more drinking to remind me why I wanted to stop. Please don't take as long as I did. I went to AA meetings 6 years ago knowing I'm an alcoholic trying to get that spark that would make me work on it. I finally went in 1 year ago. I'm sober one year now through these wonderful AA people.
Guns didn't do it for me. I had a whole arsenal pointed at me for a long time. My life was like wandering around with a poop scooper on an artillery range. I had plenty of guns at my head until the gun was in my own hand. My gun was real.
I suggest turning off your brain long enough to go to a meeting, raise your hand, and say, "I can't stop drinking and I need to talk to somebody... NOW." It's that simple and the most important thing you can do for yourself. Just a moment of courage and you will be the most important person in the room that day.You wrote:
Wow, that is some major insight... It is my pride... Now, I need to humble myself, and except the fact that I cannot do this myself... I need help!
There ya go! Yes, maam ... MAJOR insight. If you won't listen to anyone else (any other alcoholics here do that?
), listen to yourself. That's your "moment of clarity". Now just act on it before you talk yourself out of it again.
I'm a frign miracle-boy! I'm not only glad to be alive today, I'm downright tickled to be LIVING.
Keep coming back. We're on your side. Nobody holding you back but you.