Bobby wrote:I'm closing in on 4 months "dry" .. not really sure I consider myself sober though...
Yes, you can consider yourself sober Bobby!
If you're sober your sober! Period. Don't get into the debating society over dry or sober. If an alkie hasn't had a drink -- they are sober. And, you can't get any more sober -- than sober.
Regardless of how much time any of us have -- we're going to have ups and downs. Sometimes, these will be very brief ups or downs. Sometimes, they'll be long ups or downs. We can most often have fewer of the downs, and have them last for shorter periods if we're working on using the tools. But, even then -- most of the alkies I've known, will at least have some periods of difficulty that come up. And, as long as you're sober -- your sober.
Congrats on your sobriety! Allow yourself to feel good about it -- it's a major accomplishment in your life. You can stand up tall, and face anything that comes your way -- with the realization that -- yep, this crap might be tough -- but I am sober!!! And, sometimes, sober is all that we've got!
Other times, you'll start to realize... "Heck man! I can't remember the last time I had any crap come up! Dang! Imagine that!"
We don't take babies out of cribs, throw them on the floor and say "Walk dang it!"
And, alkies shouldn't expect that either. When we first get sober -- it's like being born all over again. We have to start from scratch because often, it's all new to us!