You Got It Brian & Dallas!
What a wonderful life it is! Funny, along with this discovery..."my" life has become not "my own". In the Third Step that I failed to reconize before was really the crux to it all. I never really got the "decision" part. The example that was laid at my feet was...in turning my will over to the care of God as I understand God was that I had never tuly made a "decision"...only an "incision". This meant that for example I had to cut(decision) my arm (of self will) off completely. In the past I had only made incisions (cutting into my arm). If I cut it off completely then as the Big Book says I can have a new employer...God! The incisions only allowed me to work part time for him. I discovered through a lot of pain and suffering (working the Steps/Program with half measures) that I had to completly, to the best of my ability, make, get inside, and become the real decision!
My life today is not my own. Its not about me at all anymore. As a result, the promise of a new freedom is extra-ordinary
no matter my circumstances. We walk together my brothers in this bright sunshine!!!!