Thank you both so much for your great advice and comments. I truly am enthusiastic about my sobriety. It's like I can't get my hands on enough material to read. Or really listen at a meeting enough. I WANT what you both have. I know in my heart how much my life has changed in even this short period of time. And it's so cool to get an "AH HA" moment like when of your grown children notice the changes and say something like "You're so goofy mom, but goofy in a good way now" - that came from my 24 yr old daughter on her birthday July 10th. There is alot of mending and work to build back my relationship with her. I was a good mother....my kids never needed or wanted for anything....so I thought...what they needed and wanted was for me to stop drinking. And I would make promises that I would and then not work the program and start right back up on my Friday night binges. Also drank on Tues nights, because I usually get off early on Wed's. I also never had problems at work due to drinking....HA.....so I thought again....what about all the times my attitude showed different. So again....I was lying to myself more than anything else. Denial was huge when I look at it now. And just because I got sober doesn't mean I won't have problems or challenges. That's life....so with these tools the AA program gives freely to me helps keep me in check. I have noticed the way I react to these challenges is way different. Way better I think. By clearing out the cobwebs I'm able to be patient, most times pray on it...or talk to another AA. Recovery is a journey and I thank God everyday for all of his forgiveness and for accepting me for who I am.
Thank you both again, for your awesome advice. I am attending a meeting this Friday night with a friend who lives by me. He had a horrible experience last summer. I want to reach out to him because it is true....when we help others it helps us.
Today I will not drink. Today I will praise God for everything He has done for me in my life. I will thank God for my sobriety and guiding me in the right direction to a better life. What a beautiful God!
Have a great day and God bless you all. Thank you for letting me share.