This is not the first time I heard of or thought of this concept.
I first came into the program when I was 26, 27 years ago. I got a yuppie for a sponsor. We worked steps 1 2 3 and 12 together. No inventory or any of the other ego-leveling steps I needed to stay quit. Somehow, 1,2,3 and 12 were enough to keep me around the program for 3 years. I got married then (1st time)...now I had a new higher power. Though I stressed that I was alcoholic and could not drink, we shared a 6-pack with no backlash. I drank 4, she drank 2 and that was that. We went to dinner a couple of days later with her cousins in Denver and I was in on a couple of carafs of red wine...again, no backlash. That was it. Controlled drinking was working...so I thought. Then, when I got back to my home town, I bought a bottle of crown royal, and I was off and running again for 7 more years. THE ENTIRE TIME, I KNEW I DIDN'T HAVE TO DO THIS ANY MORE if I didn't want to. Problem was, I wanted to!! The long and short of that was that I was not D-O-N-E. I also know this is a progressive disease, and I picked up not where I'd left off 3 years prior, but I dove back in with a readily advanced vigor!! My drug of choice has always been MORE, but alcohol is always the gatekeeper for me. My periodic bout lasted another 7 years...culminating in a REAL moment of clarity ...that being, I heard a small voice saying 'when is this **** gonna end...? ...When is it EVER gonna end? Like Bill W., I was going to join that endless procession of sots that had gone on before me. I saw this happening. A small, firm voice told me 'You can go back to AA.' (I have learned to recognize that little voice now.) The committee in my head immediately responded with 'No you can't...they'll all laugh at you!' or 'It's too late for you!' and other crippling thoughts. But the small voice prevailed, and I crawled back in here...to AA...on my knees. I WAS willing to go to ANY lengths to stop this nightmare. I really was!! This time, I picked a sponsor who scared the **** outta me...He took me thru ALL the steps this time in about 6 months. I was too ready! I've been back now for over 17 years. I celebrate 18 next month. This program has not only showed me how not to drink, but how not to drug, and further...how to LIVE. I still hit 1-2 day depressions and such, but they only come once a month or so nowadays. I am happy at least 95% of the time...and I accept things so much faster than I used to!! Life Is Good!
Happy 20th birthday Dallas, btw...