I must be a slow learner.
It nearly killed me discovering that a diet approach to my alcoholism -- would always end in failure.
Now, had I just been a hard drinker -- who was trying to get off the booze -- and, staying off the booze -- one day at a time -- for a while -- I, too, could have probably just quit drinking. I wouldn't need to try A.A.'s way. I wouldn't need a Power greater than myself. I wouldn't need the 12 Steps or A.A. meetings. I could have just white-knuckled it and went on the water wagon. I could have done like many other non-alcoholic hard drinkers -- and just took care of it on my own.
My greatest discovery -- was when I discovered I was actually alcoholic and not just a hard drinker. And, the fact that I had became alcoholic... meant that I had to find a way to stop drinking forever -- and I needed to find a way that works -- so that I could stop drinking -- forever.
I tend to be overly sensitive
To end it all in an alcoholic death -- wasn't pleasant to think about.