Gee Catsup! We got a few things in common!
I'm a nature and animal lover myself and I also believe in the beauty and power of Nature!
It's amazing how I can walk around with a seed in my hand - and nothing seems to happen to it. But, if I put it in some dirt, give it some water... and add a little sunshine to it--- it begins to transform from just a seed into a plant. Kind of like that application of applied principles thing that I was referring to.
When I came into A.A. the first time, it did seem like it was easier at getting sober. It didn't seem as painful as it was... after I had started drinking again... and then tried to get sober! I really had to work at it this time around! And, it took all the help that I could get. I just couldn't have done it on my own! Nor could I keep doing it on my own --- one of the reasons I'm right here -- writing this -- It doesn't bother me to admit that I need your help, anniemacs help, musicmodes help, and all the other help that I find here in the forum, and in the A.A. meetings, and from God, too! And, if I'm not doing my part in this deal -- all of the help in the world, including God and Nature and Quantum Physics -- nor anything else will be able to help me.
Congratulations on another day catsup!!!! It will get better, it will get easier -- I can promise you that -- "when" and "how long it takes" -- is the variable. For me, it has been "incremental" when it came to getting better and not being so hard to stay sober. It took time and a lot of actions. But, it did happen. Once I had finally taken all the steps to have the obsession removed -- that was when it seemed to get much better, and better and better. I must be of the slow-variety -- when it comes to change! It does work -- if we keep on working it.
Best regards to you! Have a great sober night!