Carol wrote:There's a lot of merit in the saying that only Step One needs to be done perfectly -- admitting that we are powerless over alcohol and that our lives had become unmanageable.
I certainly agree with the merit in that saying.
What does it mean -- "to perfectly take Step One?"
Here is what it means: It means that we do not take the next first drink.... in any form at all! That's the only absolutely perfect way -- to take Step One!
That is how "we know" that we have taken the first Step perfectly... because we know that we are perfectly sober!
So, if we are alcoholic -- and we do not drink today, we have practiced Step One -- perfectly... today.
If we do have a drink today -- we screwed up and didn't practice it perfectly. And, just because I take the first Step in this moment, perfectly... there is another moment, waiting right after this moment! How am I going to do in that moment? That's the real question. And, if our answer is... I'm powerless over the next moment... then we better get our butts through all 12 Steps, and continue to practice the principles of ALL those Steps... or, we just might not perfectly practice Step One in the next moment!
Step 1, is the door... and until we step through the door, we cannot pass through to the road to freedom.... that will lead us through the arch to freedom.
While some could debate over "well, perhaps you haven't perfectly stepped through the door"....... if we have landed in an A.A. meeting... "if" we could manage to use a few existing brain cells... we could look at our previous experiments... and, conclude that "I better get my butt through those Steps!"
but.... but... butt... butt... That's the problem. In regards to our alcoholism... we might as well been thinking with our butt.
We've had our head up our butts for so long... in regards to our drinking... that our heads are still thinking about crap when we try to figure out what to do about our "alcoholism."
Alcoholism... is the only illness... where the problem is actually the solution. The alcoholic must drink to treat their alcoholism.... because alcoholism demands drinking to treat it. And, that's why we're screwed.
We can't "live without it. (alcohol)." -- so, the 12 Steps treat the "living without it" problem. And, by treating the "living without it problem" we suddenly find that we are no longer interested in drinking.
I do believe... that the reason AA's drag their feet in regards to the 12 Steps is because of one problem. They are not convinced of their inability to manage to stay sober. So, in reality... when a person has trouble with taking Steps 2 through 12, the problem is not 2 through 12... it's a Step 1, problem.
Either they are not convinced, that they are a "real alcoholic"... or, they don't understand the fatal nature of their alcoholism. Drunk or sober... their alcoholism will kill them... if they do not address the "living without alcohol" problem.
It isn't the drinking -- that leads the alcoholic to the gates of insanity and death.... even though the drinking will cause premature health problems and will most likely cut many years off the life of an alcoholic.
It's "sobriety".... that leads the alcoholic to the gates of insanity and death.
Remember reading of Dr. Silkworth, telling Bill's wife, Lois, "you can either watch until he drinks himself to death... or lock him up to keep him away from drinking... and watch him go mad!" ???
Alcoholism will not allow the alcoholic to "live without alcohol".... unless the problem of "living without alcohol" has been solved.