what are some things that really got to you when you first started going to meetings?????
for me there where so many cause I was really sick when I got here
I used to get mad when people would come in after the meeting started or leave before it ended ,or side talk
(whisper while someone else was sharing that one still gets me sometimes) I would think to myself how rude dont theese people know how sick I am!!
and that I need to hear everything that is said here tonight
not that I would remember most of it !!!!!!
I would tell my sponsor they just arent serious enough about recovery and there interupting MY!!! meeting
and then some of things she would say to me OH BOY !!!! like dont compare yourself to others ,everyone is different, you are responsible for your recovery and (your not supposed to be thinking without adult supervision
oooh I hated that one) OH YEAH!! and some are sicker than others mainly you
when I first got here I had it all figured out
I just knew that the coffee maker put something in the coffee and that was why everyone kept coming back
boy was I sick!!!!!!! I swear I wouldnt touch the coffee for quite a while
and when something was bothering me I would go to a meeting never say a word and they would start talking about what was in my head!!! how did they get there
I thought I was so unique that no one could know unless someone told on me but who???
I`m so happy I kept coming back,got a sponsor to take me up those steps,(wich I was sure they wouldnt work for me but I was desperate enough to try anything I thank GOD for that!!!) I tried anything when I was drinking why not anything to stay stopped!!
insane huh? thats why I`m here cause I`m not all there
I`m here to tell ya though if ya work this simple program insanity does start to return !!!!!!!!!!!!