I relate to the salesman with fears -- that I didn't know were fears.
Most of my life -- I was in sales -- in one way or another. When employed as a salesman for other companies I would brag about breaking all of their sales records and outselling all their other salesmen (sometimes -- combined).
I could take a drink or two and sell just about anything to anybody.
The jobs and the glory was great -- until I'd pull all of my successes down on me -- and have to take time off to dry out from too much drinking.
I could talk to large crowds or into a camera with no fear -- after a few drinks. But, sober -- I was paralized.
Then, when I got sober -- I couldn't even join words together to make meaningful sentences. I stuttered.
Newly sober -- my sponsor suggested I make a list of my fears! I laughed and told him that I didn't have any fears! He could stick a gun in my face and I wouldn't blink! That made me think I didn't have any fears -- because I had faced more than a few guns in my face!
You see -- I had no fear in death -- what I had was total fear in living! Everything from fear of rejection, failure at something I wanted to succeed in, fear of bad breath! (I ate Tic-Tacs by the case! And, carried a bottle of Binaca in each pocket! )
Then, after I got sober -- I feared death while drinking. I was okay with die-ing sober... but feared I would die drunk!
Because of the program that was passed on to me -- and the help of many people in rooms -- just like here on the forum -- I got help! And... was able to return to record producing sales!
Now... my fears are like:
Fear of something happening to my dogs.
Fear of getting my heart broke so bad that it'll kill me!
A few years ago I was attracted to someone. I was terrified about the heartbreak it might cause. I used our 4th Step formula on the fear -- and realized "Yep! This is one of those really justified fears!" But, against my better judgement -- I went ahead with the process and ask God to remove the fear!
Guess what? He removed the fear! I felt really vunerable but was no longer afraid! Then, the whole thing went all kaput! (Means fizzeld out)... and I survived it with no problem!
Be careful about asking God to remove your greatest fears! When He does -- it feels real scarry!!!