Happy 6 months, Julie!!!
Has it really been that long? We must be having fun because time is flying!
I want to thank you for sharing your sobriety with us. It has been such a joy and blessing to see you grow and thrive. Your openness and honesty are an inspiration, and your ability to laugh at yourself & the world is a real gift to all! There aren't words enough to thank you for being here and giving yourself.
Step 4: I had to make sure that I had a solid step 3. Before I even picked up the pen, I went back & meditated on what it meant to turn my life & will over to the care of God. Had I done this as best as I could, with a sincere heart? I searched and connected with His presence inside me & asked for the courage & strength to see and face what was blocking me from His sunlight. I couln't face myself without His help! With His power I could carry on boldly!
Then, I followed the directions in the book. Can't go wrong there!
If I got stuck, I called my sponsor or talked to others (in a general way; don't want fuel for the gossip fires!
Geoff did a really helpful example of the 4th step in the Steps forum. I find it useful to refer to it, with others & myself.
To me, step 4 is housecleaning. Now that can be scarey if I haven't dusted in 30 years!
But, I have a Sanitation Engineer Who helps me to see
the stuff that I've been hiding under the bed, (hoping others & I won't see it
) & clean it out. The past loses it's power to hurt me. It melts away in the light of His love. Remember the song, "Sunshine of Your Love"?
..."I've been waiting so long, to be where I'm going, in the sunshine of Your love..." That's how the 4th step is for me.
GOD BLESS YOU! LOVE YOU! DON'T LOOK BACK! THE BEST IS YET TO COME!