When you're feeling down or sorry for yourself... and feeling like "what's the use? I've failed! No one wants it! No one wants me! No one wants what I have to offer! It's all useless and vain!".... REMEMBER... "it's OUR JOB and our responsibility to Carry the Message... it's not our job for them to receive it, to like it, or to appreciate it!"
We're doing what WE need to do -- and that is all that is important. We have a new Employer. He shows us what to do and our job is just to do it. And, when we do it well... we stay sober... and all of our needs (not always the same as our wants) seem to just appear for us.
Some of the most wonderful meetings I ever attended... was me, God, the Big Book, the spirits of our Pioneers and Founders... teaching me, guiding me, inspiring me, Fellowshiping with me... as I waited for a drunk to stumble through the door hoping that they would ask "What's happening here?"
You see... I had been praying and asking for Wisdom to know the Traditions. And, what a way to learn them!
When Bill W. was about five months sober... he was standing in his kitchen feeling sorry for himself. "Lois! No one wants it. What's the use? I'm wasting my time. No one is staying sober!!! It doesn't work!"
His wife Lois, turned to him, and said "That's not true, Bill." And, Bill had the moment of clarity at the same moment that Lois continued with "You've stayed sober, Bill."
For me, that was the actual moment of AA's birth. Bill discovered the key to sobriety. He discovered the Principle that never fails... even when all else fails... intensive work trying to help other alcoholics to achieve sobriety... will keep the alcoholic sober. And, in some real weird and strange way... we seem to end up happy and getting all of our needs met.
That was the message that Bill carried to Dr. Bob. The perception of the problem of alcoholism, as was passed on to him by Dr. Silkwork, and the intensive work trying to help other alcoholics.
You see... Dr. Bob already had God. He had spirituality. He had religion. He was a Charter member of the Oxford Group in Akron.... But, he couldn't get sober... or stay sober!
When Bill carried the message to Dr. Bob, Dr. Bob said "Well. We better get busy trying to find some drunks, if we're going to stay sober!"
He didn't say "Well! We better get to an AA meeting!" He didn't say "I better call my sponsor!" He didn't say "I better see which Step I need to be working on!" He didn't say "I better start praying more!" He said "We better get busy trying to find some drunks, (to help) if we're going to stay sober!"
It's not our job if anyone else gets sober or stays sober. That's none of our business. Our business is that we stay sober. And, we stay sober by offering what we have... to the alcoholic that still suffers..
Trust me. You've got some wonderful memories and experiences that will be coming your way -- as a result of your efforts. It will totally amaze you. But, it doesn't amaze you now -- because the experiences haven't happened yet. They come down the road.
Keep up the good work. That's all we have to do.