I'm grateful, that somehow, I can force myself to give -- when it's not out of loving, or for loving. Sometimes, I'm giving just to keep from getting pissed off!
Sometimes, I'm giving... for what to me, seems like all the "wrong reasons"... but, I know that the gift to me -- in giving to others -- is, that it's going to help me.
I'm childish. A big baby. Want things when I want them. I don't want to give -- I want to take! I want to get what I want when I want it just the way that I want it!
But, there are a couple of brain-cells of maturity in my head... that I worked hard to get... by following instructions and taking actions and forcing myself to do things that I don't want to do or didn't want to do.
And, the two brain-cells of maturity that I acquired tell me "Give just to be giving -- because you know what you'll be getting -- if you don't!"
So, for that... I'm GRATEFUL!