My first meeting was magic. I sat and cried and cried and cried some more and felt like I came home. I realized then that there isn't anything inherently WRONG with me. I'm not a bad person, I'm not a loser, I'm not defective. I'm an alcoholic. I am powerless over alcohol. I cannot drink. I am a wonderful person who has, by the grace of God, found this program to work to make me a better person. I felt so bloody NORMAL at my first AA meeting. I am a most grateful alcoholic and my first meeting changed my life. Thank God.