Having never thought about a drink for many, many years two weeks ago i found myself on holiday in Egypt shut up in my room with a bad case of dysentry. There was no AA meetings where i was staying. For 2 days i nursed this terrible tummy ache, couldnt sleep and couldnt socialise with my family and friends who were there with me. Slowly but surely i had shut myself off from the world. Isolation had set in and i was feeling lonely, tired and full of self pity.
Then one night in the middle of this tremendous pain i was crying out 'if only i could get some sleep or get something to take this pain away' i had what i would call an alcoholic brainwave, VODKA! That was the best answer i could come up with, that would surely take my pain away?
Thankfully it was only a fleeting thought, i got rid of it soon as and dragged myself up to the internet cafe to share it with my buddies back home where i got some good support and advice.
I was told to take some action to change my mood, so i dragged myself out of bed and got out into the sunshine of the spirit and became part of the human race again.
That was a good reminder to me that no matter now long i'm sober i'll always be a patient in this fellowship, never cured. Sober through Gods grace on day at a time