WALKING THROUGH FEAR
If we still cling to something we will not let go, we ask GOD to help us be willing.
BB Pg. 76
When I had taken my Fifth Step, I became aware that all my defects of character stemmed from my need to feel secure and loved. To use my will alone to work on them would have been trying obsessively to solve the problem. In the Sixth Step I intensified the action I had taken in the first three Steps--meditating on the Step by saying it over and over, going to meetings, following my sponsor's suggestions, reading and searching within myself. During the first three years of sobriety I had a fear of entering an elevator alone. One day I decided I must walk through this fear. I asked for GOD's help, entered the elevator, and there in the corner was a lady crying. She said that since her husband had died she was deathly afraid of elevators. I forgot my fear and comforted her. This spiritual experience helped me to see how willingness was the key to working the rest of the Twelve Steps to recovery. GOD helps those who help themselves.
Daily Reflections May 9, 2006 Pg. 138
Well, for me my fear is recovery..one of my fears anyway..well, let me rephrase that, my fear is failing at recovery..I seem to have the hardest problem of letting things go, turning them over to my HP..although it is getting easier, a tiny bit easier, I feel that if i continue doing what I am doing I have an awesome chance at recovery..in the past i have always started something, only to never follow through because of this one thing, fear of failure..rejection, even the change that would come with it..so, everyday i am asking GOD to help me remove that fear, that blockage, so that i can have what so many others have found through the Steps of A.A. I have a lot of up and down days, and in the first couple of weeks of getting sober, i was told I would have them, and it is easier to put the Steps to work for me on those days, I am just asking GOD to help me through it, surround me with his presence, and guide me through the day to do HIS will, not my own, otherwise, i wouldn't be sober today, and today i am grateful to be sober..and grateful for all of you..Have a wonderful day..Tonya