When I told that I thought I was sociopathic autistic she said, I'd say anything to get out of working the steps!.
I told her I was incapable of honesty, and she demonstrated with a cup, saying see this cup? If you fill it with ####, then there's no 'capacity' for anything else, but take the #### out (4th step), then I can put whatever I want in that cup!
When I was fired from a job, in despair I called her up, and told her I didn't think I'd ever get a job in this town - that nobody would hire me, and that I was angry because I'd have to leave, and go someplace else, thereby leaving all my support here... she responded, are you telling me that you know the future? (reminding me that my ONLY job is the footwork, and leaving the results to God).. and I have since found gainful employment and still reside in my town
I worried about keeping a job, and she asked me if I was doing what they were paying me to do and if I was, then don't worry. Since then I've lost some jobs, but in reality, that opened doors to others.
Even though I got in a relationship with a man who drinks (a topic that sparks debate among many members, ) in non-judgmental fashion, she told me that I have an opportunity to do things differently. My sponsor knows that not EVERYBODY who drinks is an alcoholic, and that it was MY drinking that caused me troubles. The BB also refers to something about spiritual condition. Although I have since had many moments of doubt, I have learned more and more about opening up to other beings, and it has humbled me, as I have been accustomed to thinking that I actually am the know-all and the end-all of all there is to know! (Imagine that!
Oh, I had been in the habit of telling her about a friend, w/whom I'd experienced much conflict, because she didn't return phone calls. Well, one time she did, and I was so happy to make this contact, that I called my sponsor, and magnanimously told her that I was willing to withhold judgement this time (thereby eliciting a pat on the back
There is so much more - I'd love to share because trying to come up with something that my disease wants me to 'win' I have never yet come up with something that my sponsor could not respond to. (Maybe I really am a dimwit).
