Great thread ~ took me a while to read through it all, and I've already forgotten most of what I've read!
My recovery has been the most amazing thing to happen to me in my entire life. This spiritual path, my new way of living and of looking at life, my new pair of glasses, just blows me away. The freedom I feel from the bottom of my heart and soul is awesome. Liberating. Light. Full. To be able to become teachable again has opened up so many doors for me.
I, too, would not want to drink again even if I were guaranteed that I could "drink normally". Alcohol by nature is a toxin, and I no longer have a desire to put it in to my body. It blocks me off from the sunlight of the spirit. I now have more respect for myself and for those around me. I also gave up smoking, I eat a much healthier diet, I don't spray pesticides on my lawn. None of that is AA per se, yet it is my path in recovery, to be a stand-up kind of gal who is responsible and loving and kind and who does not want to do harm to my physical body, to our water supply, to our planet. I attempt to consider God's will in all of my affairs, not just my drinking and alcoholism.
Am I a grateful alcoholic? Well, I'm grateful and I'm an alcoholic. I am grateful that through all of the twists and turns in my life, I have landed where I now am. If I needed to be an alcoholic to do that, then so be it. However, I can't say that if I weren't an alcoholic I never would have found this wonderful life....simply because I have no way of knowing that. However, it is what it is, and it's real good!