Hi richard! Welcome to the group!
Richard wrote:I didn't discover my HP through other humans, or a fellowship of any sort, but reading a book
1. The author was human?
2. Those who printed, published, distributed, and sold the book -- were human?
3. And, you connected w/ them -- that sounds like Fellowship to me.
The point being: You're NOT alone!
Yes. I understand your experience.
I was lucky. I got sober in a huge city with thousands of meetings and hundreds of thousands of members. I came to expect a different belief -- from each one of them.
However, in 1994, I moved to a small town. And, it's a bit different here. Still a wide mix of views but one primary one.
For me? I really don't care what people think of my spiritual beliefs. My spirituality does not depend on their acceptance of me or my beliefs.
I do try to not go over-board and offend anyone with my beliefs -- but I'm definitely not ashamed or fearful of telling them "I'm different."
Even though people tell me they believe the same way as other people -- I don't believe it.
Belief's are a mix of personal experience AND thinking. And, each person has a unique personal experience that influences their thinking.
I'll bet what might be happening in your area is: A lot of people in recovery seem to have a deficiency in self-acceptance, and self-confidence -- and, they are afraid -- because they feel their sobriety and life -- is dependant on being accepted and approved of -- by their peers in recovery. So, the "suck it up" and don't talk about it.
I find it good to suck it up and not talk about it -- when it would lead to arguments, hard feelings, or disharmony.
I don't find it good to suck it up IF we're sucking it up because we are needy for acceptance and approval.
I'm really GRATEFUL that you have different beliefs! I love it when people are different. It's only from the different -- that I can learn through and continually expand my thinking and also to remember the whys -- of why I believe the stuff that I do.
I hope that you will share your views w/ us here! It would be great to hear from you, good for me, good for others -- who just might believe exactly like you do -- but have been afraid to say anything -- and, it might be a good experience for you, too!
Hope to hear from you soon!