I had forgotten to leave a couple things off my 4th step list. The first was the french people. Having had to work very close to the french media in the 1980's, the majority of which were men, that were rude and very nonchalant about grabbing women almost to the point of abusiveness. I was kidnapped a few years ago by a cajan and with a gun at my back was used as mule for his drug deal. hmmmm, how could I possibly forgive these 2 classes of people, and see where my fault may have been?
Interestingly enough we had a hurricane which brought a couple of my worst fears literally into my back yard. But in overlooking all of my own fears, and reaching out a hand to 10,000 people in a desperate time, I became able to realize what unconditional love was all about. I forgot all about my personal well being as I hugged these people and listened very carefully to them and got them whatever help I could. I may be only one person, but I realized that God gave me the right to carry a cell phone for them to reunite their families and recover their lives. I do not own this cell phone, car, or home, I am only given the priveledge of using them when used for good purposes and paying the bill on them, and shall be able to continue to use them as long as I use them to HELP others.
Interestingly also was the fact that God had to break my body in order to help others whenever and wherever they had needs greater than mine, because I have very few needs and they are getting smaller by the minute. God Bless you all and have a blessed day, Kay