" The Promises"
when we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through.
We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.
We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.
No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others.
That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear.
We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows.
Self-seeking will slip away.
Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.
Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us.
We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us.
We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not.
They are being fulfilled among us - sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.
They will always materialize if we work for them.
Alcoholics Anonymous p83-84....
since last september, my life has been full of change... in recovery, i have three sponsee's, been chair'n 7 meetings a week, reaching out, and giveing back that was given to me... i have found a balance.... i am a part of the universe... can sit down with myself, and enjoy me... i no longer woory about tommorow, in fact, i do not worry... well most of the time.... that spiritual progress, not perfection... $$$ insecurities, they keep get tossed at me... soulution, when i dont get bog'd down with them, get hung up in the negatives, i have a clear head to be aware of opportunities, and you know what? .... they come... God does provide for me, through other people, and me... i take responsibility, wow, what a concept!... all my so called problems were of my own makeing... stumbleing blocks do occur, and i now have ways to deal with them... i look at the problem at hand, and find a soulution... ie; steps 1-3... my emotional insecurities are fading away, what did i ever realy have to be fearfull of?... ha, nothing... my past, shure i messed up, hurt a few, did damage... to people and things, i made amemds for then where be... i have a great positive attitude on life, others and me... things that used to baffle me... well hold on to that Pink Cloud Rusty... with out going in to the Oprah version... the love of my life picked up in late october... it started with some broken ribs... the result, she's dead. the Rat of addiction one... adversity, you bet..., i showed up for life, made my commitments, didn't fall on the self-pity bandwagon... have shown a number of people, new and old, that we can face the death of a loved one without picking up... the power of example we call it.. and dont think i'm saying this for any other reason other than to show that it works, when you work it... i am a big fan of destiny... this was my first recovery site, and will always be a major part of my recovery, and that Mr Big Book fell'a, Dallas... that Einstein fell'a said, time is a measure of change, well i'm being measured... because of time, i have not been around here much to share in lenght like i was remembered as doing... others may take that over... like a sponser and a sponsee.... never graduate, but move on... today, i was missing my Trish'y... Dallas jump started my ass... for what you may ask?... Gratitude... Gratitude that the promises are a part of my new sober, spiritual ass... the two fellowships... the fellowship of A.A., and the fellowship of the spirit... for that, i am gratefull... as was shown to me, Gratitude is the action part... i have taken lots of action in my three plus years... remaining teachable, and if my sponser cant get throught to me, it never seems to amaze me, Mr BB will... all good wishes, and yes Dallas, give only love, i cant teach it... happy trudgeing everyone, xxoo, Rusty
ohoh, one more thing... i do have a life beyond my wildest hopes, possibilities, and dreams