I love all the post on this topic.....
All of this has been in my heart for about two weeks now.... and as I see it play out on here, I have also had it play out in my life.
Two weeks ago I was sharing in a meeting that all was great in the land of Debbie. Doing service work, looking for a job (after 7 years of being told I couldn't work because of a mental illness that seemed to have vanished when I stopped drinking and doing and applying the steps
)Helping others, getting along with my son, like never before, not paralyzed with fear over finances anymore....everything I could ask for and more.
My life was at a point of pure peace....BUT, something was nagging inside.
And what hit me in that meeting was I had not surrendered all...
I surrendered the alcohol, and things that were disturbing me, but at a time when all was great in Debbie land, I wasn't surrendering.....
It took a few more meetings, and some other things, but I finally did what I needed to be doing along time ago...Surrender all of me GOOD and BAD.
I can't begin to explain what happened and what it feels like now (I bet I don't have to explain to a few of you
I have this peace inside...
Man, we toss that word around lightly, well, I do.
Talk about the Forth Dimension. Can I just say WOW.
This is a peace I have never felt or even thought was possible.
Paul, you said someplace, and I'm paraphrasing here: Everything is not going to BE ok, everything IS ok.
You nailed it, that is the feeling.
I don't have to worry or obsess (God I obsess, nasty obsessions)
I know, not think or feel, I KNOW that God is in control, that He is doing His will and everything is just as it should be in my life...even when it isn't going the way I want it too, it is still just as it should be.
The action or reaction to that is up to me. I
decide how insane, obsessed, disturbed etc... my life is.
I love this program more and more everyday....
How smart and simple is that one thing in step 2 'We came
I am coming to believe everyday more and more...I think it will continue to have more in depth meaning, as I trudge this road of happy destiny.
But, I am ever so grateful I stayed around to trudge.
Thanks you guys for sharing your experience, strength and hope....the positive threads, are so inspirational