My grandmother on my fathers side told me years ago that the "Road to hell is paved with good intentions". My father died from complications of alcoholism when I was approx 20/21 yrs old. Is there a correlation?
BB, pg 418 - ......I judged myself by my intentions, while the world was judging me by my actions.
Under the influence of alcohol I intended to change the world all at once, I knew all the answers, no one understands or has the guts to change things. Of course, when I woke up the next day the drive to make a change wasn't there, let me rest until I can get another drink - Damn when will 1700 hrs ever get here.
I'm grateful to have the influence of a program that points me in the right direction. There is no doubt in my mind I don't know what's best for me; I've already tried too many times. One of my character defects is as a dreamer, not a doer. Everyday I turn my life over to my HP and try to understand and do his will. I must be a doer, and not a dreamer.
I accept I'm an alcoholic and I need the 12 steps and the fellowship. When I do the footwork and leave the results to my HP my life flows a whole lot smoother. The steps work IF I work them. WORK!
Keep Coming Back,