Hope everyone is doing well and it's so great to read all of your stories. Made me want to share one of my own.
I remember the first time I ever acutally "felt" sober. I hadn't been sober long at all....in fact, I had spent a couple of decades or so drunk(Accckkkk.....I just aged myself!). Anyhoo, even while I was still drinking, my sponsor at the time was doing crazy things like making me go outside, or making me take a walk around the block, or take a walk in the park!
Then one day, very newly sober.....maybe 3 or 4 days......I was on one of those crazy walks in the park and I was told to do something that I will never, ever forget. Something that I thought was pretty friggin' silly until I did it. I was told to touch the trunk of a tree. Just to feel it. And this will probably sound weird, but in that moment, I felt something....anything......for the first time in a very, very long time. I hope that I will always remember what it felt like to touch that tree.
I remember feeling alive again. And feeling something else that was alive. It made my fingertips tingle and felt like it actually flowed through me. And, while I didn't know it then, that was probably my first sober spiritual experience as an adult. Maybe even my first real "Moment of Clarity". You would never have gotten me to admit it then, but I felt like something much bigger than myself was present . Huh, maybe it was that "Higher Power" that all those nutty AA people kept talking about!
Heck, after that I wanted to feel everything.......benches, the grass, rocks, live leaves, dead leaves, squirrels(they were't very cooperative, though!).
I owe all of you a big thank you. I have thought about that moment many, many times since it happened. I've even told a couple of people about it. But until tonight.... when I wanted to share that story..... I had never thought of that experience as being either spiritual or a moment of clarity. I had strictly thought of it as "being sober". Heck, I was actually typing this when I figured that out. All this time, I thought I knew when my first spiritual experience happened! I have a lot to learn.
Like the Book says....." We realize we know only a little. God will constantly disclose more to you and to us".
So, thanks to all of you for being the "us".......and for helping me stay sober another day!
And thanks, too, for helping me get another moment of clarity!