KJ!!!! Good to hear from you!!!! It's even better than good to hear that you're moving forward and into a good place.
If you hang in there, and keep doing what we do... one day all the stuff will be behind you, and I guarantee you that you'll find a way to look back with confidence, strength and hope... and you will even be able to laugh at some of it as you recall it!!!
I love to read about AA history. I mention that because of your reference to a Murder Mystery and Approved Literature!!!
Most of the things that I've read about the AA Pioneer's indicated they read anything they could get their hands on that would help them!!! They didn't have hang-ups in regards to whether something was approved by anyone or not... if it helped... they used it! Then, they went on to do things like write a text book on recovery for us. For me... that's pretty amazing... since the one who had been sober the longest only had about three and a half years sober! Imagine that!
Sometimes, it almost seems like there is Something out there in the Universe... that makes sure that we get what we need... when we need it... to help us get to wherever it is that we're going!
That Something.... that just seems to always be there watching out for us. And, we might get the help that we get through a book, a comedy show, a song, something that a stranger says to us.... something on a sign, a smile, a hug, a license plate, a bumper sticker... a message on a forum... and even a Murder Mystery book!!!!
I am totally sure that, that Something.... is looking out for you!
It's really great to hear from you. I know you've been going through some difficult times... and hopefully, you're near to the other side if it.
Best thoughts and wishes to you!