great post gma, I know what you mean exactly. I have had certain events happen lately in my life that at the time I viewed as bad, but turned out to be the best thing that could have happened in my life.
I have come to realize pretty quick that I'm not only NOT running the show but, I'll be lucky if they let me mop the floor after the show is over.
Yesterday I had a pretty amazing day going through something that could have been hard in my old mindset but, with my eyes a little more opened to the situation at hand, I saw just exactly how those steps were actually working. I may be slow but its starting to sink in slowly but surely.
I was even told that while I was going through this event that others would be with me in spirit, and low and behold I was sitting in that courtroom reading my BB and a lady sitting next to me asked, "so how long have you been a friend?" It nearly blew my mind as I sat there realizing we are never alone in anything we do.
As scared as I was going through this doing things with God's guidance, rather than the regular manner I would have used such a short time ago, everything worked out great, and best of all no harm was done to anyone, which I realized very quickly was the best way.
I am now able to place all of my concentration on my recovery and let everyone else in their lives do their own thing, whatever their thing may be. It's not my place nor my wish any longer to *run the show*. I'm perfectly happy to allow guidance from God to steer me in the right direction, which for me is a HUGE step, being the cynic I always was. No more!!!! I learned so much from yesterday that I don't ever want to look back again, even though I'm doing that in this post ( yeah I know yesterday is history) I am living in the present today and doing my best to follow those directions given, and even learning no matter how much I push on that door marked *pull* I will get nowhere.
Have a great day everyone