Thanks for sharing your experience Mike!!!
I went through a sober broken heart at two years sober and it nearly killed me. I came to realize that one of the reasons that I used to drink so much (besides because I was alcoholic)... was because it was the only way I knew to deal with and avoid dealing with emotional pain of the broken-heart type.
I'm glad I had the experience, because at five years sober... I had another sober broken heart experience that totally devastated me!!! It was worse than the one I went through at two years sober...
What I learned was: the longer I was sober... the more capacity for emotional pain that I had.... because the longer I was sober, the greater my ability to feel natural emotional pain.
As I look back on it... I learned a lot at the five year pain that I wish I'd learned at the two year pain... and kind of wished that I had the four or six month broken heart and gotten through it -- to prepare me for the five year broken heart!
Hang in there Josh! Learn what you can from this to help you in the future. You don't have to drink over it and you can learn some valuable tools to use for the future. And, you... like Mike... will have a story that you can share based on your experience, that can help many others!