Robby wrote: but I keep talking to my sponsor and going to meetings and doing my fourth step and reading the book
Hello Robby, and welcome to the site.
It looks like you're taking the right actions. My head, when I was sober about the same amount of time as you, and most others that I know -- who had about the same time sober as you -- we all reacted pretty much the same way -- lots of fear based panic style worry mongering wild thinking going on. I think that might be fairly normal for most of us. It will change and it will get better.
What's really cool in your situation -- is the actions you are taking!!!
More than likely -- everything is going to be okay for you. I wish I could promise more. I can promise that you'll never have to pick up a drink again in you hang in there and keep doing what you're doing!!!
Best regards to you,