Bravo cricket for saying so simply what could have been complicated.
Tina welcome to the forum... and there had to be a very good reason for you to have ended up in an AA meeting to begin with. As Cricket says very plainly try every meeting you can find until you find a meeting with a group of people you are comfortable with. It does work very well.. you just have to find a meeting of a group of people where you are at ease.
There is one out there made just for you. Not everything and everyone is suitable for all people, just as no person can be everything to all. If one AA group meeting worked for every person out there that needed help, there would only be 1 AA group in every town, and campbell's soup would only have to make 1 soup and everyone would love it
I may not be able to tell you where to look in the Big Book or quote letter and verse from it, but I can tell you that if you want it bad enough you will find that group of people where you feel at ease
Have a great day! Always, Kay
p.s. Is there a rainbow coalition of AA? There could be