Hello, My name is Ben H., and I am an alcoholic.
I know my story is not unique, but I have not run into another like it in this area. When I came into AA, I sat down and read the Big Book and worked the first three steps on my own. I was totally broken and knew I was powerless over alcohol. I had no problem believing in a Higher Power, because I already had one, nominally, though I had to seriously rearrange my thinking about Him. I worked a ridiculously puny 4th & 5th step with a sponsor I had for about 6 months. He did not waste much time on me because he was 20+ years sober and could see I was not very serious about the Program. That was 1984. Fast forward through 20 years of off & on meeting attendance, 10 years of which I did not attend meetings. It was a long dry spell. Around 2004 I got into spirituality and as a result of reading some C. S. Lewis books, began seeking God on another level. At this time, I met my current sponsor and his wife, who is not AA, but is very spiritual. After many early morning discussions in the kitchen of the Biscayne Room, I asked him to be my sponsor. We have since reworked the 4th through the 8th steps, and I am trying to actively employ and apply the 10th, 11th ,& 12th steps in my life. What a waste of time â€“ 20 years to find out what I was looking for was in the Program of Alcoholics Anonymous all along. I am eating humble pie. What is this tirade about? It's about getting yourself a sponsor ASAP. Don't wait, delay, or procrastinate. A good sponsor is educational, enlightening, understanding, sometimes maddening, uplifting, and, if you're lucky, humble. Make the leap â€“ ask him/her to be your sponsor. Don't wander around in the wilderness for years like I did. ReaderRat