Good morning Rain! Thanks for sharing your presence that I'd find so early this morning! I gotta be careful! I could get addicted to this!
My meditation and study last night and early this morning? Can you guess it? -- Step One! You betcha! Alkie's of my type will never learn too much or practice too much of Step One!!!
It's only when we don't learn enough, or stop learning about, and stop practicing Step 1, that we head into trouble!
Why is that? I used to think Step 1 is just the kindergarten stuff! Why can't I spend my time trying to impress people about all kinds of profound theories and wisdom and speaking in tongues... with little flames of fire on my head, talking about Spiritual stuff????
Two of the reasons, as I see it:
a. Step 1, is the foundation of our sobriety and recovery. If I wake up in the morning and my knees are wobbly -- and the foundation underneath me is shaky or isn't solid... I'm at a huge risk of falling before I can take any more steps! So, for me... my first Step of the day, is always most important! Once my first step is solid, and if it is solid -- I can securely and safely move on to the Next Steps!
b. We read it over and over and over and over again... "The spiritual life is not a theory -- we have to live it!" I believe this to be an Ominous Warning! Us alkies love to think! Give us something to think about and we'll think about it to the point of getting high on thinking!
Next, give us something to think about, that's abstract... where we can't see it and know very little about it -- and we'll become experts in 5 minutes or less on the topic! And, that leads to more ... thinking.
We seem to forget -- that it was our thinking -- that got us into trouble the first place! If my thinking hadn't been so screwed up -- I would have quit drinking after my very first trial experience with a drink!
And, if my thinking had have been better -- I would have found real solutions to cope with my problems rather than trying to do it with alcohol!
Yes. I've taken the Steps. Sanity has been restored (today). What is sanity? The ability to think straight. To think sound thoughts. And, what's the most sound thought I can have?
a. I'm alcoholic.
b. It's not safe to spend my time alone thinking!
c. I read pg 42, in BB:
"â€œThen they outlined the spiritual answer
which a hundred of them had followed successfully."
The facts are: the only thing I will ever know for sure about the Spiritual
Answer is: God is. He can
. End of discussion for me.
Now, let me move on to the Program of Action
because that is something that I can learn about, know about, and most importantly do something about! Take actions now!
You see, an alkie of my type can not
afford to wait to "take the next right action
." Why? Because I'll get hooked on my thinking about it and never get it taken -- until the next right action is now the next wrong action!
Solution? I've got to take the Right Now Action -- Right Now!
I've got to be Into Action
and not Into Thinking
Step 1??? It's ALWAYS the Right Now Action